Everything Has Two Sides To It.

I have not touched base on thise thing for a week or so, I thought I would come bless the mic real quick before work. Well The 2nd week of school is almost over with already, so 14 more to go, this semester is going to fly by, which is a good thing but a bad one as well. Meaning I am going to have to watch my ass, and do everything possible to not fall behind. My classes are alright but a few of the teachers seem pretty weird..well things are going good on the other end of things, I am just realizing that I can be as wrong as anybody. Sometimes I would like to thing I am a genioius and never wrong, which is probably my worst feature. But wise men realize their weaknesses and work towards fixing them, ignorant stay ignorant to the fact they are no more perfect than the next man. So at almost 24 years of age, I am still a work in progress. Taxes are done, and im getting back almost 800 bucks! That could be used to cop the xti that i always wanted, or even go towards the new imac i want more than anything! Rather it is not, it will go in my savings and sit, because i really need to start saving for moving out after graduation..so boo i get nothing out of my tax return money! TTFN!

Grand Ol' Time.

Man this weekend was flat out the BEST. Well of course, besides the worthless fact that the chargers lost. Booo. It's ok we had one hell of a season, and we will be back and better than ever next year..so for all you bandwagon fans, hop off now bitches...so anywhoo, back to the weekend, well a year of not seeing a certain someone and finally reunited...damn, and it felt sooo goood. She is just amazing PERIOD. I went up this weekend hoping for the best and recieved even better, which I have no clue how that is possible, but it is. My life is going exactly where it needs to be headed as of now and the a missing piece of the puzzle that was originally in place was scooped up and plopped right back in its spot..so thankkkkk you boo for that. SF was nuts, such great weather this weekend up there, we probably walked about a good 8 to 9 miles total around the city that day it was just that great, went to some great stores, bought some goodies, ate some bomb fish and sipped some brew's with the Mrs. and finished it off with a great movie in the city..National Treasure 2 is dope as fuckkk so go see it..but ill be back up there soon, i cant ever get enough!! I lubbb HER.

A Confused Mind Is Sometimes A Healthy One.

SOo yeah..Im actually just a tad bit off the rocker, a nut job you could say..haha. Well not intirely but I actually am not as sure shot about life as I always convince my self to be. But hey who is right? I just need to learn to take things as they come, and not try to force things, because then they are not as real as they appear or originally intended to be, so relax b. relax. So recap, my chargers are the shit and now we have to face pretty much the craziest team to ever play, but we can hang, so I pray to the football gods that they grant us this one wish..anywho..Found out my ticker is still in good condition even though my anxiety tries to tell me otherwise..so yoga classes anyone? or just some sort of meditation they suggest, to find that inner peace and natural healing...steenz im meantioning you now, since you did not get mentioned in the last blog lol..your a trooper and a keeper so stick to ya gunz kiddd. Well this weekend Im off to the yay to get my "HELLA" on ya dig hahha..but no, jo mamas a girl i do care for aaaaalot and I are going to have a blast, and hit san fran and eat some good eats, and see some good sees, I can't wait! maybe nanay will make me some nilaga (spelling?) if I am lucky! ha..so yeah reading is good fo' yo health kids, almost done with another...till next time kids, I got my A's cap on and the town aint ready for ya boy!

There is no formula.

"Love is when you are concerned about someone else's situation as you are about your own" - Morrie Schwartz

I guess I can say I have some sort of understanding, on the reasoning of why I am the way I am. Some people can look at it as a bad thing, me being "worried" about their lives, and in actuality look at it as me being in their business. That's not what it is nor was at all. This is really for the people I do love and care so much about. I just want everyone close to me to succeed, to achieve not what they think they can, but what their dreams do. I do this, because I love you guys. Jo, your a beautiful girl with an even more beautiful soul..and you fall nothing short of greatness, and you will be great at whatever you do, including being an amazing life partner as well as a mother. Zac, your like my brother, and still the most down to earth person I know to date, I thank God everyday for blessing me with a bestfriend like you, because with out you I dont even know where I would be, moving to california unfamiliar with the setting, you had just as much to do with my upbringing as anyone...and I know you will succeed and I want that for you, because I know you were put on this earth for something unordinary..Los, what can I say, the funniest man I know, and as far as feelings about relationships and women, God must have duplicated us, your a sweet soul with a great heart, and that perfection in the form of the opposite sex, is waiting for you, in due time brother you will have what you want, because I know you, and in this life, that is your meaning, it won't be a career, though I know you will be successful, your most success will come through family..Sean I dont know what I would have done in life with out you, I would actually probably be some anti social pale kid that plays warcraft ha..I am strong because of you, I learned from everything you have done in life to make me who I am today and I love you for it, You amaze me still on your dedication, and how you made a life for yourself, and the way you handle things, and I just want the best for you and your family, and I know one day soon, that house you always wanted will come around, maybe not as soon as I want you guys to have it, but it will be here..To everyone I have in my life, I love you, I admire you, and mostly, I respect you.

200....? I Lost Count.

Well another year is upon us, and I am excited to an extent, but of course I have my doubts like always about certain subjects that come with the package. I didn't even do anything today, it kind of sucked, and truthfully I don't even feel like typing or writing with intelligence..(ha), I told myself I would be positive for the 08', and that i would throw some baby powder on my hand and pimp slap it, make that bitch mine, but today, was not a good start. I did get out and run like I stated I would do, so there is one plus. People confuse me? Life is one of those things, like a good twist in the plot of a movie, just when you think you got it figured out, something so off the wall comes and skates in..some people you want in your life you cant have becuase their plans blueprint might of left you out, and others you really want in your life, that might actually return the thought, might not ever end up with you because of stuff that is out of your control..I am going to be 24 years old, why do I feel so out of control? So helpless? Don't get it, never will, this year I will change for the better, I will stop pursuing these companionships from other people that when it comes down to the nitty gritty, have the thought of what toothpaste to use on a higher priority than my good being..Sometimes I care too much, but you know what that is just something I can't quit, thats what I do, I suppose I just have to do it in a more conservative action..Friends are like M&M's, you usually got a handful you keep close, but the rest just melt away...so happy new year to all, to the few, and I do mean FEW (like I can count on one hand), I love yall and appreciate everything you give me in this life, to you others, in 07 I would of said FUCK YOU, but for now, We will keep it at a friendly smile, and a chuck of the duece.